Dear Number 1: Happenings

It has been a very busy week thanks to you. Your Grampus started a YouTube channel and decided to use it as a means of holding himself accountable. That accountability got me off my butt and on a long walk to join the nearby gym, while dealing with pain in my back! Trust me when I tell you, the source of motivation had to be incredibly strong to get me to do that.  

I've been making videos, editing videos, filming stuff... I've been as real as it gets while telling my story and that hasn't been fun. It isn't comfortable either, but that's where we all grow: when we're uncomfortable. 

I made my goals for body reshaping public. I made my goal to improve my Thai language skill public. I made my financial goal for this year public. I've put a lot of pressure on myself, but I'm not going to let myself down. Instead, I want to provide you an example of how life changes when we decide and commit entirely to that decision. 

I edited and posted this morning, consolidated my blog, wrote a new bit for the very first book I started writing last year. It seems I'm coming out of the funk I've been in with that for the last seven months. I hope so. I think I've got a compelling story here, but I wrote myself into a trap I didn't see until I was 82,000 words in. 90% of the way there. That still smarts a bit when I think about it, but I think I've figured out how to mitigate it. It'll still require me to rewrite the 2nd act, which will necessitate a re-write of the 3rd act. Its a lot, but I really want to finish and publish it. That has become more important to me than how the book might perform if I bring it to market. I can't control any of that, but I can control my effort and I want to publish this story. I want to publish several others bouncing around in my head, too. 

My life changed when I learned you were coming into the world, and changed again the first time I saw your face in person. I knew right away that you more than deserved my best. That helped me figure out how far I've fallen short giving everyone else my best. 

But you know all this. This is just another message to you to let you know I am thinking of you. Your Mom sent me some pictures of you and a couple of videos of you saying your new favorite word: "daadaa." I bet your Dad's heart still skips a beat any time he hears you saying that. 

I'm doing better. I'm inching up, kind of like you. I'm just happy and grateful that you came into the world. I love and miss you more than I can say.  

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